I am preparing to work the night shift next week by staying up late on the weekend. I see the clock now reads 12:17 AM. It is September 11, 2011. Ten years.
Like a lot of others, I remember where I was, and what I was doing when I heard the news. I was working out in the shop at the company where I worked at the time, teaching points on some Sankyo robots. These were for a system we were supplying to Nissan in Tennessee. It was a special day. I was wondering how Alyssa was doing at her first day of pre-school. She would no longer be home with Dona all day. It was now time for her to begin her education. She was taking that first step down the trail. I was going to miss it all. I had a lot of work to get done before these robot systems shipped, and I expected a long day. Alyssa only had to go to school for half the day in the morning, and I would hear all about how her first day went when Dona called me at lunch time.
I wondered how Emily was handling it. She was just two. When we went to the orientation at the preschool, she fell in love with some of the toys in the class room, and I remember she did not want to leave them. I can’t blame her for wanting to be where all the cool toys were. It was good that she was getting some one on one time with Dona in the morning.
Dona was pregnant with Julia at the time. We did not know if our third child would be a boy or girl, but the following February we would be blessed with yet another wonderful daughter.
My realization that things were bad was when one of the electricians walked up to me while he was listening to his headset radio. He told me that a second plane had hit the other tower. It was like an alarm went off in me like never before. When he told me about the first plane, I pictured a small Cessna going off course. It had to be an accident. Maybe a small fire, but it would probably be out soon, and they would have to repair the building. The pilot must have had a heart attack or something. I knew that we were in for something bad after the second plane. This had to be intentional. Were we at war? With who? What next?
I left work at lunch time to help Dona pickup Alyssa from pre-school. It was the most unusual trip to school that I can remember. I wanted to collect the family, keep them safe, but at the same time, I wanted to show calm around my kids. They would never understand this, and I did not want to frighten them. It was Aly’s first day of school, and it was supposed to be a happy day for her. I was happy for her, and at the same time, I was wondering about what was going to happen next.
Most of the parents that came to pick up their children were subdued. There was not a lot of talking, a few nervous smiles, but I could see the weight of the morning was heavy on us all.
I made it back to work in the afternoon, once everyone was home. I felt like I had to keep doing my job. I kept in touch with Dona, and played through how we would evacuate the area if something bad happened near our home. It has always been like me to play out scenarios in my mind, and wonder how I would react. It was a very uncertain time.
I look back on the last ten years, and I remember so much from that day. I know it changed me. It motivated me to go back and get my amateur radio license. I had let it expire years ago. I thought that maybe I would be able to utilize this in an emergency, and be able to assist with communications. I joined the local SkyWarn weather spotting group. It is setup to report severe weather to the National Weather Service via amateur radio. These might seem like small things, but I was searching for some way to help.
I remember those brave young high school seniors who were signing up for the military. They were answering a call that they felt in their hearts, and I respect that. I think if I had been 20 years younger, I would have been there with them. I had a different path ahead of me. It was ok.
Now that my children are older, they are beginning to understand the meaning of 9/11. There is a lot of coverage that talks about the attacks, but I like to dwell more on the service and patriotism that came out of that day. The courage of those first responders, and the unity that everyone felt.
I can be thankful that life has been pretty good over the last ten years. I have been able to stay employed, except for a short layoff in 2003. I have battled the same issues that a lot of others do, but I can’t say that life has been bad. Alyssa is now in the 8th grade, Emily is in 7th grade, and Julia is in the 4th grade. Dona and I will soon celebrate our 16th anniversary.
I look forward to the next ten years. I don’t look forward to more gray hair, and not being as fast or strong, but I look forward to watching my children grow, and seeing their futures unfold.
It is pretty quiet now. Everyone else is asleep. The dog is snoring, and the cat is off exploring some other part of the house. I can hear distant traffic above the choir of insects in the backyard.
It is now 1:20 AM. It is September 11, 2011.